Dependence Paroles

i've taken a hand full of pills

but i'm still here

and i don't know why



i wish that i could say

i'd like to think that

it means i'll find my purpose someday



and i've been cheated on


but i'm still alive and my heart is beating

and i know that every love i've encountered

is fleeting



and every time i crack that seal

the bottles opened and i feel

that i've found a release



like it is something

that was specifically

made for me



i know it's not but i like to pretend

i love the idea

that i'm slowly putting my life to an end



and i have dreams with people and situations

i awake screaming some nights

i wonder if it's from all the complications



i'm finding comfort in being alone

it's by far the most prominent feeling

that i've ever known



if i talk to just one stranger a day

it's too much for me

i'd rather stay away



alone in my room

with my music and cold

i love it so much it never seems old



but when a beaming light of a girl appears

all that desolation

turns into fear



and i can't help but feel lost when i find

someone that makes me

completely lose my mind



fearing loneliness i latch onto love

but instead i should flee

like a single white dove



there's no way to replace my mistakes

they continually happen

and eventually replicate



and i drink myself right into the ground

when i've lost

whatever treasure i think i have found



so i try to bury

these thoughts

on paper



but a stiff drink

always

seems safer