Sorry Not Sober Paroles

Talkin' to God is a given
Losin' my family time for the sake of my family
Damn it, it is sickenin'
Holiday season, it should be a breeze for me, it's becomin' too difficult
Would rather be spendin' this time in the living room, is the point that I'm gettin' to
I ain't really complainin' about it and really the studio part is a given too
(Keepin' my feelings at ten and two)
Right in front of me, right when I get a groove
(Like I'm ADHD in it lately)
It's startin' to feel like a piece of me kinda broke
I'm not one of them rappers that say anything on a record to say that I got it though
Momma told me I should stay for some dinner and I had to tell her, "I gotta go"
Moment's I'm missin', I know it's just dinner but after so many it take a toll
I know momma not judgin' me 'cause I'm her baby boy but it's still an adjustment
In the midst of me finally makin' it
Lot of people I fell out of touch with
And my shorty, she can't even look at me
She think this is as good as it's gonna be
Tellin' me, I don't love her the way that I did before I came into my luxury
How the fuck you gon' tell me I'm startin' to change when everything happenin' good for me?
Are you scared if I make it, I'll forget about you and all the moments I didn't have a dime?
Moments you sent me a couple of dollars and all I could give you was all of my time (Time)
(You'll be mad if I tell you that you out of line)
Workin' my life for the moment, I get it and now you don't know if you'll be on my side
And I gotta tell everyone that I'm fine
Give 'em a hug, send 'em a smile, I say that it's great, I know that I'm lyin'
I handle with grace, I'm copin' with wine
Why I feel out of place and I'm not even tryin'?

This time, I'm in control
Next time, I bet I won't be
This time, I'm on my own
Next time, I bet I won't seem crazy